Wanting Crystal

…It, this thing, had so much promise such newness. It tasted like wind, like cool water, I felt it land on me like sun rays.

Sweet Sadness

Loving someone is both sacred and vile. Vile because it, the thing we cannot name, becomes something that binds us in light and darkness; surely will grow or change while it creeps into some dark, rusty, abandoned place, through circumstance, non-believing, or some other form of organic drizzling. Like a remnant memory from one of…

Blackness as Sunrise, Slurps, and Love.

I write about my blackness as a meditative practice.  A means of survival and celebration. To bring the foundational elements of myself, up and out, like water from a lawn sprinkler.  A blackness that disappears if you try to possess it, one that sits on your window sill like a quizzical sparrow.  A blackness that…

I May Die Dreaming Of Black Freedom

I realize on a deep and cosmic level that I may die dreaming of Black freedom. That will not be fine but I accept all that is, a world that is not safe but can be joyous, the racism, the struggle, and witnessing how so many Whites have remained stuck in honoring White supremacy. Those of…

Reject Violence As A Way Of Being Human

If we do nothing else today, pray for loving peace.   Pray that our hearts will open wider and support girls and women in our lives with deep gratitude and purpose.   Pray that our hearts will continue to beat, and with every beat claim the knowledge that comes with a beating heart. To know,…

time for love

like everything we search for and every thing we need. we find a way through the door hoping love will seed.   through every moment of regret and every wonder why. we take this thing we can’t forget and seek the rising tide.   for every moment that we take for every heart we give never…

Your Soul Is Plentiful

Our soul is a magnificent force connected to the universe and it replenishes.  Now, don’t get me wrong the soul has a spirit that can get really tired but that is not the soul.  The soul is that loving presence, some refer to it as a higher power, and others call it divine and holy,…

Lessons that I have learned …

Be kind to strangers. Speak from your heart. Pray. Forgiveness is love in action. Listen to your ancestors. We are never as alone as we feel. There will be darkness and there will be light. Laugh, laugh, and laugh. Deep things take time to learn. Affirm. Never stop learning.  

Triumph of Selma: Duvernay’s Cinematic Mastery of Blackness While Walking The Tight Wire of Whiteness

I saw the explosive, powerful, and touching movie, #Selma.   Selma is one of my all time favorite movies because of its touching portrayal of human complexity created within narrow psychological margins.  Selma also tries to correct the cinematic over-emphasis of the over-indulgence of seeing Black history through Black male experience. The movie recasts the lives of African Americans…

The Drip-Drip Method: I JUST CAN’T GIVE YOU MY FORGIVENESS -S1/E8

Previously on Episode 7: Miss Wilson tells ReeRee about ReeRee’s father, Becker.   This is what Miss Wilson said about the enslaved Black man that she loved–“I loved your father. You may never understand but having you near me all of these years has kept my love for him in my heart. I still remember…

Being an ally is understanding and validating the worldview of that group

I am pleased to have the permission of my dear friend, Tara Edwards to post this wonderful essay.  Tara is the first of many (I hope) guest writer/blogger on the Pancake Diaries. As you know we are engaged in lots of peaceful protests and conversations about racism, oppression, power, and police brutality in our country….

Meditation and The Funk

Friends and family, About 15 months or more ago, I meditated over a weekend with 10 other brave souls for about 16 hours in total silence. I experienced a sort of mental and emotional breaking down, questioning what really existed inside. Searching for the essence, in a sense. In a similar way, our country is…